G.

G.

Ciao Gre come stai? Ultimamente ti penso spesso. Penso spesso anche a tuo fratello. Mi dispiace non averti scritto nulla quando è successo. Non sapevo cosa dirti. Non lo so nemmeno adesso. Volevo solo sapere come stai. Tra due settimane è il tuo compleanno. Mi manchi, non so perché. È quasi un anno che penso …

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Jealousy

Jealousy

I love talking about jealousy, I sort of don’t really know what it’s like to feel it, but I have experienced it on me in every toxic way. I have rarely felt jealous, and when I did it was mostly just envy or a covert resentment. I understand my jealousy is just anger. More often …

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Monogamy? In this economy?

Monogamy? In this economy?

I’m quite struggling with my feelings lately. I’m not sure what love looks like for me, right now. I broke up with everyone I was dating cause none of those people had much meaning for me. And now I’m left alone with my feelings and I’m really struggling with understanding them. 1. Monogamy Fucking what …

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A day (part 2)

A day (part 2)

I wrote my plan at midnight before the day actually started. Now it’s ended. I love my friends! I do! The movie was phenomenal and I loved watching it with E., it was just as delightful as I expected. We caught up a bit and planned another movie night for when I get back to …

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A day

A day

The moon is shining. I’m in Turin. I’m 27. I’m about to defy my family’s curse on me. I tattooed a Cleopatra on my shoulder blade to go the Egyptian museum. It’s a curse on a curse on a curse. I hope it will ease my relationship with myself and my aunt and everything. Then …

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truth or consequences

truth or consequences

okay, so I told him. I was so convinced to just shut up about it, I did manage to tell him I’d miss him, like I’d hoped, and that should have been it. But then, yesterday, as I walked through the airport security I suddenly felt regret. Maybe it was the sudden realisation that I …

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Idiot

Idiot

I am an idiot. I knew this from the start. I think I’m feeling something like jealousy, for the first time maybe. Maybe it’s more like envy or something I don’t know. But I feel this little pain in my chest every time she gets mentioned and I just enter this spiral of sadness. She …

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Ego

Ego

I wish you were hereI wish I could share this with youI wish you could be here with usOr maybe I’m just cold andmiss the warmth of your bodyagainst mine Share this… Tumblr Facebook Telegram Twitter Whatsapp

T. and C.

T. and C.

T. I’ve been thinking about her a lot, lately. I’m not really sure why. I know I do not want her in my life again, let alone near anyone in my polycule. But I can’t stop my thoughts, can I? And so I let my mind wander in the memories. Her place, her cat cuddled …

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I’m not ready I want it

I’m not ready I want it

“I’m not ready for a relationship yet” is so much easier to say than “I want it with every fiber of my being”. “I don’t want this date to go well” is so much easier to say than “I long for romance and connection, I long for eternity and unconditional love and I don’t want …

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